I realised that I haven’t written a post in a while…
It’s crazy to think that I’ve almost finished my first term at NSCD. I feel like I’ve changed a lot, but not at the same time. I’ve grown in terms of technique (or so I like to think), and I’m finding new creative outlets, but what I think is most fundamental is my ability to be more open. I am more open to trying things, to be daring and to push myself to be uncomfortable.
Before I would approach new steps with the cynicism that I wouldn’t be able to do it, even before trying them. I would have a negative mindset when it came to doing things like pirouettes and I disliked the unfamiliar. Too secure, too safe and always too comfortable. Improving, perhaps, but in such a microscopically slow way that it wasn’t really productive.
Now I like to think I embrace new things. If you don’t try you’ll never know is certainly a mantra that I’m living by. I want to make the most of these three years, and if I’m not going to give new things a chance, then I might as well not come back after Christmas. A willingness to learn, to be more daring and an acceptance that sometimes I will fail are qualities that in my opinion are conducive for proactive learning. I might not be able to do a double slap turn into a triple pirouette in second and finish with my leg in arabesque, but I’ll give it a crack if Andile asks me to do it.
This lends itself to watching dance as well. Performances that are abstract, dance theatre or so strange that they can hardly be classed as dance should also be approached with an open mind. Training in the contemporary arts it is important to embrace all things new and foreign. Things that you don’t understand, possibly don’t like and are unsure whether you want to see again. For after all, the performances, ideas and artwork that are a little bit off the wall right now will probably become hallowed classics later on- the pioneers of the future.
This is basically reflection gold, be sure to see it feature in my reflective log… but on a serious note, I think that this realisation is going to really push me. Merry Christmas everyone.